I reached the “I just want to graduate.” mentality. I have a lack of focus for school now. I don’t like doing homework, never did, and now I just hate it to the point where I hardly even open my book bag once I get home. I don’t really study for tests. I don’t like waking up early. I hate everything about school now. I just want the passing grade and get it over with.
I really can't picture anyone having a crush on me. I can’t picture someone thinking about me before they fall asleep, or telling their friends about me. I can’t picture anyone getting butterflies because I said hi to them, or even just smiled at them. I can’t picture someone smiling at the computer screen or their cell phones when we’re talking. I mean like; why would they even do that? I’m just me. Nothing extraordinary, or special.